Beliefs and Thoughts: How Powerful are They and How Do They Affect Our Students Ability to Learn?

As always I am excited to open my e-mail and see a message from you. Thanks for the meditation. I will incorporate it into my morning ritual along with my meditations from my three favorite meditation books. I have been really disconnected lately as a result of life happening. It always amazes me how easy it is to fall back into old behavior; however, what I have learned always trickles in, but at a slower pace. I am sad to say I was not able to rekindle a relationship with my sister. Being that I have a small family, only one sister, it seems really hard to let go. I can deal with my mom only because she lives 1500 miles away in a nursing home. They say the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree and my sister picked up where my mom left off. What I realized after doing a lot of writing that I have post dramatic stress in dealing with the issues in this family that only get worse. I read your message about beliefs and thoughts and how powerful they can be. I guess I needed a real life lesson to show me. I would like to share that lesson with you
I woke up last Sunday filled with anger, grief, hurt, and many more emotions. I was totally consumed by all of these emotions. I tried everything I have learned in the past up until now to overcome this situation. I could not sit still so I scurried around the house doing every physical job I could find, and I was even voicing my anger out loud along with moments of crying until I was exhausted. I was screaming to my God to please remove this from my being. I finally sat down and watched a documentary on T.V. named Buck. Buck Brannaman trains horses in the most humane way possible, but it was also about how he was abused ruthlessly by his dad. I believe that I was meant to see that documentary at exactly that time. I am totally connected to animals and have been all my life. Buck teaches horses with respect, gentleness, and love, and insists never to show anger because the horse will sense your emotions and will shut down. After his mother died his father’s abuse worsened and he and his brother ended up in a foster home. There were 18 boys in that foster home and he still to this day calls the lady Mom that took him and his brother into that foster home. She is still very much a part of his life. Buck says he is still not able to forgive his dad because he caused to much hurt. His saving grace in his words is he just stays in the moment most of the time. He travels around the country 9 months out of the year having seminars and helping people train their horses. He meets up with his wife and two girls, who are grown now, as often as possible. He is truly a loving and power example of the Laws of the Universe. I have had to grieve my family even though they are still alive. Like Buck things got worse for me after my father passed away. My father was a bright star in my life and he still shines through. I have been able to return to my higher self even though I still have the scars of the experience that I have been through. I knew even at the time I was experiencing those emotions that I had to go through it to get past it. I also did a lot of writing. I wrote down everything I needed to say to my sister even though I know I have said it many time before. I will take that and burn it and release myself from the burden. My sister has a life threatening heart disease and had gone to the hospital and wasn’t expected to live. I felt threatened because I felt like I had very little time left to make things right. I got dressed and undressed several times that night to go to the hospital. I waited until the next morning before I went because I knew I wasn’t wanted. I spent three days at the hospital and I haven’t heard from her or her children since. I have experienced this behavior over and over again. I know now that I can not allow myself to be harmed again. Each day gets better. I have my son who has been very supportive even though he is miles away too. We have always been able to get past our differences. I don’t ever want him to go through life without me or me without him. I have a very happy life with my dogs who teach me every day unconditional love. With Loving Energy Kathy…